Selamat Hari Merdeka!

To all my readers, friends and relatives from and in Malaysia, Selamat Hari Merdeka!

Love,
Raxsiel

My Love Affair

Yes, I have to admit, I think i'm having a secret love affair..

but..don't worry, it's not with someone, it's with a place I have a little connection with.. =)

So it's..3 days to Merdeka..and it's a long weekend for all in M'sia! First things first, Selamat Hari Merdeka to all, [especially to my readers from M'sia!] I hope it'll be a long great weekend for you guys!

I guess many of you must be wondering why I'm typing this entry [since I don't celebrate Merdeka]. Surprise surprise, what many of you might not know, is that, my dad was born malaysian! Pontian, Johor..I believe. =) and my grandma is from Batu Pahat! So yes, I do have some ties with Malaysia.

But strangely enough, I never really have explored M'sia much, save for a couple of visits to JB to visit relative, Genting, once to KL, and the most recent visit to Melaka. To be honest, I was too young to remember my visits to Genting, (perhaps only the last visit made in...2004?)..as for that one & only trip to KL [think it was 2005], I remember it quite well, but it was mostly filled with shopping, eating..and more shopping! Oh yes, I love the pet stores!!!! Definitely the first time I was seeing hedgehogs and sugar gliders being sold as pets!

I suppose the most recent visit to Melaka is the one that I remember best. I absolutely loved and love the place and amount of heritage there is! [Plus, it definitely helped that the place I stayed at faced the sea!] Pity I didn't have much time to really take a closer look around Melaka. =( But I'm still thankful to have seen parts of Melaka, both the city and suburbs =). I would definitely love to head back there some time soon, and explore Melaka a little more!

Hopefully visit to more parts of M'sia as well, I was told Pulau Redang is gorgeous too! It, being a conservation site for sea turtles and containing two historic shipwrecks! (Things I absolutely love!) Plus, I love the sun, sand and beach! [Roadtrip in Oct, anyone?]

Well, I suppose you can say this is the start of my love affair with Malaysia, and perhaps my journey in knowing myself a little more =)

Selamat Hari Merdeka!

Love,
Raxsiel

Shoutout

This is a little shoutout to a dear friend of mine =)

Hey there,

It was nice seeing you again =) [plus, I returned you the hug I owe you, now I only owe you one]. Perhaps you're wondering why I'm writing this entry. But to be honest, it's also difficult for me to explain. It's probably just in my nature really. There were just some things I wanted to say, but for some reason, I just held back, and didn't say them.

I'm really sorry to hear about what happened, and I could see that you were perhaps somewhat troubled/affected by it. And it's quite understandable, if I were in your position, I would be feeling the same way too, especially when you know the life stories. Life, indeed is unpredictable. I'll just leave this entry here as it is for now, I'll tell you the things I wanted to say in person perhaps? I know this isn't much, but written words can only do so much. For now, here's a hug, and I hope somehow, someway, it conveys more than what is written here. *hugzZ*

Love,
Raxsiel

World Vision- One Life Fund - AIDS Campaign

World Vision - One Life Fund - Aids Campaign from Nick Tan on Vimeo.

This video was sponsored and produced by a friend of mine (and with help from crew members) from scratch in efforts of fund raising for Aids Victim (Kids scholarship) by World Vision. Though the campaign is over, World Vision is still in need of Child Sponsors. Sponsor a child today, and make a difference in their lives.

AIDS is a disease that carries alot of social stigma and usually just brushed under the rugs, making most aspects of it almost taboo to talk about. Having been with AFA, I've witnessed the emotional,physical and financial strain this disease has on not just the patient, but also their loved ones, so this video definitely takes a place in my heart.

Though this campaign is over,I definitely hope this helps garner more support/awareness for World Vision,their efforts and AIDS. =)

Love,
Raxsiel

Just Another Day..

Thanks for all the concern and wellwishes!! Really appreciate every single one of you! =) My left eye is definitely healing up (including the incision), though at times it feels like someone punched me in the eye still..lol!! Stings a little at times when I apply eyedrops, but nothing too unbearable! =D [will post up a picture of my eye soon!] In the meantime, I'm still camping indoors cause my eyes are still quite sensitive to light..really wanna resume running and meeting up with friends soon!!

PS: If you're into Thai cuisine, keep a look out for my entry on this great place to makan!

Today was just another day really..except that.....I woke up to find that someone ate all my favourite cookies!!! =(

Oh well, guess I'll go find out where I can get those cookies! [does anyone happen to know??] made me one sad person in the morning..=( Anyway, for those of you who have mentioned I don't really upload photos of myself, here's one.. [this was taken...in july?] =)

Love,
Raxsiel

Wolfman Trailer! [Opening 6th Nov 2009, SG]

Woots! I MUST watch this! =D

Day 1 after Surgery

So off I go to my first review with my doctor..Well, nothing but good news (thankfully). I still have some residual power in both my eyes, (25 degrees & 50 degrees) which is actually quite normal, since it's only the first day after surgery. Doctor says my eyesight will still fluctuate, but it'll stabilise soon enough. Oh yes, and my bloodshot eyes will subside over a month or so. It's worse in my left eye due to the difficulty of fitting the suction over my eye, resulting in several blood vessels bursting =( [that's why they had to make the incision] but I really appreciate all the concern and wellwishes!!! =) Here are some pictures taken at my clinic!

Reception area

Refreshments @ the clinic!

Door to Surgery!!

Waiting/recovery area

But of course, now I have a perfect excuse to wear my sunglasses even indoors..lol...

Was in town for a while (since my clinic's located in town), and embarrassingly enough, made my very first visit to Ion Orchard. LOL. (Yes, I hardly head to town cause I don't really fancy crowds) Okay, call me a geek, but Ion Orchard's directory is touchscreen based! lol...

Alritey, I'll keep this entry short..my eyes are feeling the strain already.. but I wanna write a little shoutout to a dear friend of mine overseas..

Don't worry too much, and please get lots of rest. I know sometimes things seem a little impossible, but just keep believing in your dreams! Look how far you've come, and you're just half a step away to your dream. Don't give up. Sometimes, it's harder to put it into practice, but I know you're definitely capable of it. I've seen the way you've made it through the difficult times of having gone overseas to study alone, going through your exams, writing all those long essays, applying for jobs, wondering if you'll make it through the licensing exam. But you know what? You've made it through all that! And I'm so happy and proud of what you've achieved. =) Perhaps right now, things seem to be so stagnant, and you might feel like you're not accomplishing anything, but hey, take this time to relax a little (since you just finished your exams not too long ago too) I know sometimes administrative things can get a little annoying (I haven't got my results back either!) but don't lose faith in yourself and your dreams. There's nothing you can't achieve so long as you believe. =) I'm always here for you (though we're 16,205 km apart), be it an email or an offline message away. Don't ever give up! *hugzZ*

Only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be.

Love,
Raxsiel
xoXox

Surgery!

Right..first things first, thanks to all of you who sent me smses and left me messages on my facebook to shower me with concern and encouragement! ( I really needed it!!!) You guys are the sweetest! =)

I'm supposed to be resting my eyes now, so I'll keep this entry short for the time being, i'll get back to edit it again when my eyes are better..Many of you asked what surgery I was going for, and it's actually Lasik! For many of you who don't know, yes I'm actually shortsighted! (Did i mention with relatively high astigmatism as well?)

My brother, who has been through lasik, told me it was going to be quite alrite. But I think he left out the fact that he didn't have any existing eye complications..-_- In any case, during my surgery, my surgeon made the decision of making an incision along the edge of my left eye (after administering anaesthetic, of course) to better facilitate the surgery.

And yes, once the anaesthetic wore off, all hell broke loose, trust me. I felt like someone punched me in the left eye. To top it off, my eyes were really dry, hence they were tearing throughout the whole surgery and hours after that. I think I definitely scored a new trend in Orchard Road after my surgery..I was in eye shields, taped right to my face, tearing non-stop from Paragon all the way to the bus-stop along the Thai Embassy.

Anw, I have to end my entry right now, (really sorry, I'll go into more details n put up more pictures soon k? Only one picture for today! erm, it might be disturbing to some readers)


Love,
Raxsiel
xoXox

Bookmarqc.com... 08.09.09!

A Change - Flipsyde

Happened to see this off mtv. Absolutely love this song, I think the lyrics mean so much, and it's something that I really believe in. Sometimes, we get so caught up with the negative things, that we forget to see the strength in ourselves, and much as I would hate to admit it, I'm pretty much guilty of that too. (But hey,the past makes us who we are!) Someone once said to me, many atimes, we can't change the way things happen around us, but what we can change, is how we perceive the situation and how we respond to it.

I suppose we might be sad, hurt or perhaps even angry at why things happen the way they do, and I think that's perfectly normal, but at the end of the day, we'll all just have to try to take a step again, because no matter how bad things seem or just how much you want to give up cause it seems all so hopeless, as long as we still believe in our dreams, there will always be a way, all we gotta do, is hold on tight and keep believing. (one day,you'll look back and see how much you've grown!)

I personally think this song relates really well to me (and many others too!), mainly because alot of things have been happening in the recent months, and many atimes, I'd just feel like giving up altogether, but I guess I'm fortunate enough to meet an awesome bunch of people who believe in their dreams - who just never seem to give up. Yes, hopefully you guys know who you are, and I'm really inspired by you guys.

On another note, I think the video really speaks to me as well, it's something that I've always wanted to do, not just now, but also as a lifelong committment. Having been through some moments of my own, I know how it feels like to be downtrodden, all alone. Personally, if I feel awful enough already, I'm very sure that there are many others going through moments that are several times worst than mine, and I would want to be able to do all I can to make a positive difference in their lives, be it in a little or huge way (it's my childhood dream). Many people have said to me that it's going to take alot, but I think sometimes what we fail to see is that it could be as simple as providing a listening ear, a hug, saying 'Thank you', or even a friendly smile (trust me,having been in the service industry,a smile from the customer really can change the whole day!) It doesn't have to take a natural disaster or war for us to start making a difference =)

I think there is nothing better in life than to give, not just something of mere physical value, but also to be able to give others the gift of hope. To me, that's what I would want to be able to do, to make a difference,whether small or big, and hopefully inspire and to be inspired.

Right, I better end the entry here, [I know the whole entry is really messed up,maybe I'll write another entry on this topic again later on =) ] I've put a copy of the lyrics just below the video, I hope you guys enjoy the song/video as much as I do!

PS: remember to set the blog song on pause! ( bottom right, right sidebar)

Love,
Raxsiel

A Change - Flipsyde

[Verse 1]
If it wasn’t for my pain
Then I wouldn’t know my strength
If it wasn’t for my future
I won’t be fightin here today

And of course, I know my way up
Cause I fell the same way down
What matters is what you do
When the troubles come around

[Pre-Chorus]

Take a step now
Get up on your feet
Gotta be brave
No clouds above thee

Follow your heart
And then you’ll see
There’s always a way
Hold on tight
Tomorrow will bring
Every key to every locked dream
It ain’t as hard as it seems

[Chorus]
Baby don’t cry
Things are bout to change
Baby don’t cry
Things are bout to change
And all the hurt and the tears
Will be just history
And all the doubts and the stress
Will be just history
And all the hurt and the tears
Will be just history
And all the doubts and the stress
Will be just history

[Verse 2]
Your mind carries heavy weight
And your knees are kinda weak
You wanna run and fly away
But you hurt the wound is deep

You feel like it’s time to give up
When your soul is cryin loud
Nothing lasts forever
You will find your way

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
I only wanna be a real man
I already got a real plan
I ain’t gotta be rich
I ain’t gotta have wealth

I just do the best I can
Cause the life of a child
Innocent’s worth more
Than a ring and ya new jeans

Got love in my life
And that’s all that I need
You believe and you succeed
And through the pain and the hard times

We push on with our head high
Each one reach one clothe one feed one
Do it right now, its time

Things about to change
Oh yes, we can
Things about to change
Yes yes we can

Things about to change
Oh yes, we can
Things about to change
Yes yes we can

Things about to change
Oh yes, we can
Things about to change
Yes yes we can

[Chorus]

And It's Been...

Right, so here I am, blogging away, complete with a congested nose and feeling absolutely lethargic.I blame it on the weather! haha!! Just processed a couple of photos from my time in Melaka..and then I realised my stupidity..I actually put up some photos even before I processed them -_-". And people have already commented on them! Me being me, don't want to lose the comments, so now i have one photo that is repeated on my album..oh well..lesson learnt - never upload photos when one is too sleepy!

Anywho, somehow I feel like this trip to Melaka has really changed me a fair bit. I've met awesome people, and learnt alot from them! Not just solely in terms of acting, but also characterwise. Let's just say I've been inspired by many of them there, and yes, I know I have what it takes to get through anything, I'll be just fine =) Dreams are reality waiting to happen, something I've always believed in, and even more so now!

Really looking forward to more opportunities to act, and learn more! hehe...
Right, shall sign off here for now..remember to stop by my facebook album!

Hugs,
Raxsiel
xoXox

Ps: Click on the photos for a clearer view!

When Technology Fails me

=(

Facebook 'ate' all my notes, and now I can't even find the one that means so much to me! Thought i had a copy of it in my blog,..and I'm still searching for it..Anyone has a copy (by some stroke of luck) of my note that's titled Dear Boy? Contact me!!!!!!!!!!!! Pleaaaasssseeeeee?

And Twitter is being PMS-y on me too!!
=(

Hugs,
Rax

I'm back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELLOOOOO!!!

OmG! I have so many things to talk about, I have no idea where I should start at all!!!!!

Firstly, I'm home!!! =D But I'm seriously missing the wonderful people I've been spending time with the past few days in Melaka! Absolutely awesome and really patient people! Missin' the whole bunch of them loads =( All the jokes, dinners, suppers and chats.

Cast & Crew! (missin' u guys loads)

Really sorry about not completing this entry yesterday though..Took a shower, had my dinner (which I didn't finish till round about midnight -_-"), did the laundry, and the usual bit of clearing my emails and uploading some photos. Sounds pretty normal, but, thing was, I was supposed to head to bed by 2am cause I wasnt feeling too well =( . In any case, by the time I actually got off my laptop and hit the sack, it was already almost 4am -_-" . Probably explains why I'm still unwell now.=(

Annnywayyyyy, huge apologies to those who were msn-ing me and barely getting much replies from me last night. I was having a tough time combating the ZZ monster while attempting to finish up my things. (I actually fell asleep while brushing my teeth..HAHAHA!) Catch up with you guys more tonight! =)

Please be really patient with me, I'll be uploading the photos (behind-the-scenes photos too!) from my time in Melaka. In the meantime, I've uploaded a couple of them on my facebook, be sure to take a look!

Hugs,
Raxsiel
xoXox

Sigh.
Of all days,

Anyway, i'm off to m'sia for a couple of days,
be back on Sat!

Love,
Raxsiel

I Heart You Online

I love this song! It's awfully cute!

PS: Dedicated to you


A song about feeling amorous towards someone on a social networking site.